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January 15
bored
so one week of skool has passed and what has transpire???? soccer has not started yet..... no prizes for guessing my cca teacher in charge.. ms bernie ashley... haha yeah she is so gonna torture us man.. lolz.. chem was still okay to say the least.. physics well mr teo still the same... cannot say much.... we got mrs naidu back for gp not tat mr cho ain't good but yeah we prefer mrs naidu.

class pretty much the same but yeah lots of stuff happen this

December 09
chalet
okay this post more of what i have done rather than chalet stuff ... haha cos chalet was well interesting to say the least.
but first, in the last few weeks of school hols , virtually spent my time rotting at hoem and of course doing the dumb homework... lol gald to save chem i ahve done half, physics almost completed but maths still hanging in mid air like usual and i still got history to do.. lol how am i going to finish haha.... but yeah my bday was still okay.. the usual no celebration and stuff, my aunt just gave me tewnty bucks onli and my dearest bestie, kit, yx and drool gave mi a nike bottle.. haha i just love nike stuff.... haha anyway not goin vietnam for the hols and i am seriously sorry Si ( if you ever have thchance to see this), i really miss you dear friend and i hope you are doing fine...all the best and of course take care to my besties who are flyin overseas, remember to buy presents... loads and loads of it for me... lolz.......




now chalet quite okay i think but not as fun as i would like it to be .... sian .. bbq totally wasted too much food and the people we expected to turn up did not... lolz... what you expect, then accidents happen and the rain came poring down like there was no tomorrow so in all it was damn bad, went night cycling wanted to make it to ECP but in the end did not.. sian.. haha want to test myself.....


today tuition still okay lah but i think chem better than maths..... told ya liao my maths sux.. wonder how i get into maths class.......


seem so distanced from everione around me.. right now.. gonna concentrate on studies but on the new com and let the game self play by itself lor.... how must study to not get kick out soccer.. so jia you....

last few days of freedom den it is chioin to the end....


to my bro in HTA NPCC CI course, take care and do your best,
you know you can do it within you,
no matter what you say you know in your heart,
you want this as much as you want that hp.
try your best and i will see at your POP!!!!!

October 31
alexzz.....
haha.... yea as the title says.. this post is all gonna be bout alex cos he is gonna leave like in a week.. haha.. okay he is like a bro to me.. haha i noe i got lotsa of god brothers like sunny, spoonboy... haha yea but alex is the fuuny one as my frends say.. he is like innocent and naive and the questions he ask are hilarious... man when he leaves.. we are goin to so miss him yea all the times we spend goofing around lol.. haha sunday spend some time with him.. lol guess it isa the last time unless i go send him off at the airport..... which is pretty late.. 11 pm... well i dun noe wat else to say, if i got more then i add lor.. haha all the best man alex...

July 29
emptiness
okay here goes my rambling, my idiot yea i reali mean idiot and irritating brother keeps annoying me for what reasons i dun noe maybe he is too crazy???


tbfc ......... had our 1st match two weeks ago and we won 4-3 but the match yesterday we lost 5-0 0r 6-0... sad but it was a good team effort, i recon... ppl dun noe the effort the team put on .. all that matters to them is the score..... no we did a good job especially don.. she saved lots of goals. i nvr played yesterday but i did came on a while for the 1st match.. haha jus need the experience.. love everybody in the team and yeah coach is the best regardless of wat everione says..... yea he tortures us but we grow up too through it all......go check out our pics at www.tbfconline.com .

oh yea our pe teacher left us to go to uni liao.. yea she was a relief teacher but she is not the atypical teacher, she took the time out to play basketball with us and yeah she was real fun too...... reali gonna miss the time we had together..... haha at least i am still playin bball after a long time.....

March 03
crazy week
haha yea as the tittle suggest.. it has been a hell of a crazy week for me.... nothing can beat that haha.... wednesday.. soccer training aiyah cos raining den we go play in futsal court den my favourite is to take off shoes and socks to play haha... yea den the rest jus play the other side... den that poor gal diyana.... accidently slipped and felled and landedea on her left shoulder blade.... den she say she injured so we bring her go see mr koh... yea.. den he ask mi bandage her arm and bring her to nearest clinic... haha the doc there say she mus go a and e and take xray so we call mr koh to sent her there ... yea she got a bit of fracture i think..... my soccer juniors ah..... take care .. dun get urself injured some more hor........ take care.... we need you.. and we so so so so love you........ yea den today sat mi went for cdc training and den loads more mjc ppl come got 14 den we did training.. coach hafeez asked mi to play attacker but i like defender more haha.. dun noe why he like to train mi to play attacker den sya father also say mi play attacker.... den later we play match he made me play midfielder... which i so dun like but i will adapt...... i promise to adapt for soccer juniors cos you guys are my life.. to yiying who is leavin ijc to seek greener pastures.... all the best for you and i think you have the potential to become a top footballer so work hard for the rest who are stayin in innova.... haha work hard together and we will bring back something........

dun noe
haha.... last week nvr blog so now tellin u guys bout it haha.. spent last friday doin homework in skool wif alex.... did maths assignment wif him den teach him chemistry.... yeai noe i pon soccer icos i sick wat haha.... den later he say he wana buy stationary so i brought him to cwp popular... b4 that we went all around cwp to look for comp games haha.... so lame rite.. the computer stores in cwp all like shit lah.. somemore so stupid....

den sat went for cdc raining yea cdc training roc.... got a few mjc players came and play and it was so freaking fun haha... learn new stuff but sad that liza and nina not coachin us, they got their own training... league training.... so lucky nvr get injured.. after training dad came and fetch mi den go home lor and pig out cos dad company afternoon got celebration den he da pao so we jus ate a bit of that food... den we went out to eat cos mi mum's sis hubby treatin us cos he past year spent lots of months in brazil.. wana him to buy the havaians slipper and bring back choco.. haha.. den later we send mi big auntie and mi cousin bf home haha.. reach home at bout 12

sun big day....woke up bout 7 + den dad sent mi to nus cos ijc playin in competition..... yea saw sherlyn there too but she restricted by coach so cannot play think nyjc reali suffer becos of that yea and den nus team damn strong lah.. but we draw with them so lucky... got one or 2 team damn lucky to make it to next round which we did not but we still happy cos without a coach we still manage to draw on our thee matches, 0--0, 1-1,0-0... yea is i score the goal one from free kick... yea i was like so scared it nvr went in den when it went in i was like doin the flyin thing lor so happy.. score 1st freekick in competiion... reali motivate mi to do better.... but but but... my dear player... krystal sprain her ankle durin warm up den i so worried for her haha... yea i veri concerned bout my juniors one reali hope she get well.... haha.. i even ask to sms after she reach home and after she went to see the doctor cos her parent s not in singapore... so worried when i sms her at 8+ at nite den she nvr ans , onli ans at 11+ haha next day in school mi wana kill her liao but she not in skool.....yea i noe i like moher hen like tis but yeah lah they all my juniors lor .... dun take care of them ..... not senior liao lah..... yea hope she get well soon.. go kyrstal.... hAHA get well soon

February 23
cny eve eve
haha it has been a long time since i have blogged.. think my blog has died... haha.....
went chinese new year jus came and past.
me been munching too much on new year goodies so right now sick haha.. haven collected all my ang baos yet too....

last week , day b4 eve of chinese new year.. what did i do??? haha was bored after the stupid assembly.. can u imagine stay in skool till like 1240 but no concert.. was a freaking waste of time man ... after tat wanted to go eat boon lay nasi lemak and play cards with SG and xian but kit not around.. we loiter around den decided to go take kfc wer we saw alex(xander) and bk.... haha.. den later when we eatin bk when to change and alex came and sit wif us and we played cards till bk came out of toilet half an hr later.... den we pay bk to orchard wer we spent like 1 hr in cathy sittin in the apple store watchin movie trailers.. haha... so weird... 5 innova ppls in apple doin nothin watchin trailers onli.... den later bk wana go plaza sing so we all bring xander go chinatown to cc look...... we tried him eat ba gua and other stuff but he say he stomach upset den dun wana eat.. funny free food also turn away... unlike singaporeans free means take more....haha den e weather a bit crazy one suddenly heavy downpour when we eatin german sausage yea so we seat around for awhile den decide to walk in the rain .. xander was so comical.. lah... use umbrellas.. we nvr use cover den SG reali funny went to play wif the water cos so funny den we stay until 7 like tat lor.. haha got pics of that days but xander haven sent me yet so when he does i will post.... p.s. SG pics damn cute.... haha

December 31
New Year Resolution!!!!!
haha... yeap 2006 is coming to an end in like less than two hours... haha it means less than two hours to 2007......... well as with every year, one gotta do a New Year Resolution.. haha and so goes my New Year Resolution:


1. pass my year end promos with at least Cs

2. play soccer to all my heart's content.... join team .. mayb

3. save my money... at least $300 (link to point 4)

4. go back to ta van

5. go back to sj

6. lose weight

7. play conqueronline

8. learn to drive????

9. oh yea.. c wat my liquor level is like... haha



can't think of anymore haha... when i have more i will add......


till then chao

sick
jus fll sick yeap so veri veri sleepy and tired.... bad mood too... down with fever and sore throat.... so that os how i am gonna spent my new year haha... haiz........

December 25
merry x'mas
mery x'mas everione haha... yeap x'mas is here and it is the spirit of givin.... yeap dun noe whether i have done much giving a not tis year but i have certainly gain lots..... mot onli from the vietnam trip but also from those around mi.... but in this day of joy... mi kinda of feeling down.. yeap super down in fact... nothin much more...... watch tv last nite till 3a.m. yeap when cousin talk to mi i appear offline so kinda of bad doin tat but yea feelin down....... in fact yea....



i miss ta van
i miss the kids in tavan
i miss the laughter
i miss the joy
i miss the happy faces
i miss the interaction
i miss the bantering
i miss the cold weather
i miss the food
i miss the people
i miss the hotel staff
i miss the bus ride to tavan
i miss seeing the animal down
i miss smeling the fresh air
i miss the crazy moments
i miss the hanoi
i miss linh,trang, kattie aand all helo hanoi peeps
i miss the constant honking of hanoi
i miss the smell of road side food
i miss the warmth

i miss EVERI 1 in Ta Van & Hanoi









LoViNiN aNd MiSsIn U aLl...............







Merry X'mas and PeAcE oUt........








WiSh AlL oF u AlL e BeSt Of LuCk !!!!!!!!

December 22
bored
haha...... last 2 weeks till start of skool..... yeap still decidin wat sub combinations to choose econ chem physics or..... dun noe... haha wana try econs for 1st three months den c how but frend say physics chem more important.... haha if onli in the states got more choices.............. now still confusin.......



move on to ta van ..... reali missin the kids there...... simple....... my com desktop backgrd is all their pics.... den everitime look at laptop all i c is their pics.... wat can i do.........

sounds of fun, laughter is still ringing.... lanugage is no barrier but is the link tat brings us closer.... is does not distance us... what you see is a common happiness within two differrent grps of ppl... ye anothin much to write..... feel lazy to go back to sj also..... aiyo.... new skool year should i join a new cca????? qns ...sssss..... but no ans......

December 17
*light*
haha.... it finally dawn upon mi today that yeah..... we live in the same world but the disparity between each individual is so freaking great...... i am not saying that you or they are not happy with it.... but the differences are just so great so big, you can just feel the gap... nope it is not me going crazy....... haha... within singapore itself , you can see the stark difference what more out of Singapore.... poverty a great issue within the world but is it gonna be solve with the sysytem of the indian that won the nobl prize.... are we gonna achieve more with the new UNSG..... is his policies gonna make a difference. What are we humans..... i can drone on and on..... on and on i think if youths have a view they should just go voices of youth and just voice out. cannot say much except that yeap it just struck mi..... go go go.... goin back to ta van as soon as i am ready..... changes in me to be found in the new year but accept that the world is changing with or wthout us is hard... accept the fact is just hrd to sallow

December 15
bored
can u freakin believe it...... raining on such a dumb sunny day..... yeap and i am kinda of bored also everiday stuck at home facin e fours walls...... and of course playin com.......... anyway these few days kind of down..... still missin the kids in ta van..... especially Si...... yeap and that kid tat wanted me to teach her love songs for her to sing to her bf...... yeap the kids there are damn innoncent and yea reali missin them..... haha.... lookin at the pics each day... anyone got pics... send over.......... pegs planning to go back next year and i wana too.......... yeap tats all...... haha......... email my frends hope they reply soon......

August 09
examzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz......................
2 more months to promos and not reali prepare for it................. yeap it can be fucking stress and so many things to do haha........................ yea got a couple of new frends though at tuition. jaki. melissa. lim hong....... gary.... and many more yeah... stress bout teacher's day 2.......... wat should i do about it??????????? tat................... is one bigggggggggggg qnsssssssszzzzzzzzzzzz... studyin callsssssss bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb..............bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

July 03
LIFE................
Life as one might say is full of ups and downs....................
it is nvr a bed of roses................................................
but rather like a cactus or neetle...................................
once you find a way to overcome it...............................
it is nvr a stinger......................................................
sad to say it will nvr happen.........................................
at least not to mi...................................................
haha....................................................................
can nvr change the image of mi in others eyes.................
everithing also my fault............................................
if onli i ain't existing.................................................
mayb it should jus happen.........................................

freakin pissed off......................
freakin pissed off now................. arg.................... nnot my freakin fault.............. yea yea i noe i do it b4 but everitime also mi like cannot mis place mah???? bein an asss that wat he is............. asshole ............. told u not i do means not i do................................ ass him lah................ stupid................. got mi own $$$ still take his 4 wat.......arg...... mayb gonna cut myself again.... i dun noe..... if u dun believe it is not my freakin fault.......... i got enough $$$$$$$$$$$$ for myself liao........... f###.............

May 27
soccer
haha next week is camp day and i am so..... busy cos i am freakin out..... actually i miss alot of things by goin camp next week... like soccer tournament, soccer training..... but what must be done must be done........... heehee.. june hols are here but den... its summer test after e hols so not much to enjoy gotta work work and work.. oh yea still have OTC startin on the 18th june.......

December 26
poem or not
Actually tis is something i wrote for my god bro a long time ago when he was feelin down.. so yea jus put here for fun.....................


Life to me is a world of darkness.......it is an empty void nothing much. in tis world of darkness, everithing is dark, there is no light, no sun......u can only hear,feel,smell,taste but not see.....there is no such thing as lights in my dictionary and there will nvr b........darkness is always within..........................................






Darkness can onli b a measure of how much and wat i feel but it can nvr b e measure of e anger or sadness inside mi...4 its onli those whu have gone through will understand wat i am feelin......my mind is swirlin lyk a tornado and will nvr cease for it keeps throbbin, remindin mi of e past...e quarrels, emotion breakdowns............






as e tots swirled in my brain, i got madder and madder........as it brought back memories of the 1 i loved...........darkness once again seep into my heart, fillin e empty space......y did she leave mi...was i 2 enclosed in my own world of darkness or did she leave mi 4 the light..... i faded as tots once again surround mi............


saddenzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........................
k i am kinda of sad today..... come on for fuckin sake.......................its lyk der......
any way i am veri veri SAD right like now............

fell like quittin conqueronline... and start playin MS.... feel like everione hates mi on conqueronline...... damn it it went off the wrong way.......

any1 for turquoise server and from LIGHT... i am really sori
to all i have offended i am really sori.............
i am gonna delete my account...........soon

o feel like i have no mood to play conqueronline any more...... der u guys might not c mi online anymore... so bye bye and luv all

December 21
update
okay.. left a few more days to christmas....and here i wish u guys merry xmas........
update u guys on conqueronline.... i am now lvl 85 jus 45 more lvls to rb and i lam loving it..... tis is my thinking everi week lvl 2 times at least so one month 8 times * 3 it would be 24 lvls.... tat makes it lvl 110 by end of march.........
yeah and to all if u have never play conqueronline b4... play it. it is fun....... and join LIGHT.. it is my guild...... everi 1 there rox.. i have lots of frends....... but i am gonna miss playin once school starts......... so love mi u guys........ and yeah i mined two gems today, got 2 mets and gain a lvl................

SJAB
is is kinda of hard.... i dun noe whether i wana go OTC a not.. cos i mean it seems so far....... but i truly love sj............ i wish we could jus win FDC.........
camp jus went by and there is truly no words to describe it.... it is all for u to imagine.........be it good or bad...i feel tat e sec 3s r too overwhelme by alle stuffs.........

tata tats all for now gotta go back and play conquer............ mining

November 19
fun!!!!
Finally o lvls are over and done wif.... attended ms wing weddin today... guess i spent more time with e animals at the zoo huh...... it was kinda of fun...... reali miss goiin to the zoo............

October 24
chem prac
one more DAY to D day....... chem prac tml... feelin down these few days but den life no fair playin conquer now....

October 20
sad.......
today is a freaky day........ i got 16 over 30 for compo....... actually is 13.. fellin lyk killin e cher... very sad..... and den cher notice i cut myself well...... is e stress but i nvr tell her but give her guess... i guess it is not onli e stress but also e pressure and e chers ( u should noe for my frends)....... life so sad.. tot so many times of endin my life and i cried...... ya i did when my cher talk to mi but she is pretty gd but she kinda of wierd dun noe lah got lots of ppl dun lyk her cos she veri chummy wif one person in class... i dun noe lah... my head hurts... it spins.. and no i ain't goin read anything else today. to all whu care bout mi thanx......